Thursday, May 17, 2007

Don't Be That Mom

Tomorrow morning is Aidan's kindergarten orientation. Kindergarten ORIENTATION. My baby has to be oriented for kindergarten. As part of the orienting, the kiddies get to take a bus ride with their new classmates. I have been preparing Aidan for the bus ride and orientation to avoid the inevitable breakdown. I also, well, have been preparing myself for the bus ride and orientation to avoid my inevitable breakdown. Literally, I have to have pep talks with myself about not crying. I do not want to be THAT mother. The mother crying and clinging to their child like a complete lunatic. Even though, well, I have a strong suspicion I just might sort of be that mother.

As I put Aidan to bed tonight he asked me questions about what to expect tomorrow. After a few questions, he was quiet for a little bit and gave me a long, hard hug. Then he turned to look at me and asked, "At kindergarten, can I take my blankies with me to hug?"

Tears in my eyes. I gave him a hug and played the mom card of "we'll see."

If I can't make it through the discussions about the orientation without crying, how in hell am I supposed to survive the actual orientation? Or even worse, (sigh) the actual kindergarten? I am so going to be the hysterical pyscho mom. Let the therapy for my child commence.

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